You are not the body-mind

From your experience, see if this talk from Lester resonates:

"You may see fully who you are and not be able to maintain it. What happens is that, being the infinite Self, we can get a glimpse of the infinite, hold it for a while, and then suddenly feel as though we've lost it.

 The reason for that is that the mind has not been eliminated. The subconscious thoughts of limitation are submerged for the moment. You may go completely into your Self and let go of the mind temporarily. You haven't eliminated the mind, you just momentarily let go of it. 

So there you are, for the moment, totally the infinite Self. However, the mind that has been submerged, re- emerges and then the ego takes over and you just can't understand what happened to you, what brought you back into the heaviness of the world again. 
What is required is that we re-establish that state of the Self again and again until it becomes permanent.
 Each time we do it, we scorch more of the mind, until finally we have scorched the entire mind. Then we are permanently established in the Self.
 Then you sit back and the mind is out there and the body is out there and you are not the mind, you are not the body.
 As long as you know you are not the mind and the body, both of them can go on to their heart's content, and you know that they cannot touch you."